DDPY Thoughts

 Well, it was a week later than planned but I did start working out again!  Yesterday I went back to TKD. Not gonna lie, it kicked my ass!!  I was wheezing - thanks COVID - and couldn't do a single push up.  Karl kept asking if I was ok. Between the wheezing and the vertigo type dizziness, I probably didn't look ok.  Honestly, I felt revived.  I know where I am and I know where I am going to be.  Just gotta put the work in.  Between DDPY and TKD, I'm all in.  Did Stand Up this morning and will probably go to TKD tonight too.  I may not be able to do it...yet, but I will do it!

Restarted the beginner program yesterday.  Day One of the beginner program is watching the weekly guide.  So today begins my workouts.  It's a million degrees outside so today will just be a DDPY workout.  And, I have one of two synchronous summer school sessions this evening.  Oneder-land here I come!!!

    Let's be real here....I've fallen down/fallen off the DDPY wagon so many time it's hard to count.  But...I'm getting back on it!  In order to go to the BSA National Jamboree with Jake next year, I need to lose weight and be in shape or it could literally kill me.  Had an eye-opening experience on Monday.  We had a tornado watch couple with a terrible storm.  I was home alone with Jake and had to get him into and out of the basement.  Given that Jake weighs around 115-120, that was no small or insignificant task.  Three days later and my arms are still sore.  Something has to change.  I'm tired all the time, even now that I'm consistently using my CPAP.  I'm pre-diabetic and do NOT want to go further than that.  I am truly at my wits end.  If this is what rock bottom feels like, I'm going to do everything I can to get the hell away from it.  So, here's to Day One v.50000. Starting weight 6/15/2022: 203.2 Goal...

 They say that failure is only in getting knocked down and not getting back up again.  Well, I'm back up again.  I struggle with staying consistent and changing the way I (we) eat.  I don't always want to be the fat chick in the room.  I don't want to be embarrassed by my triple chins on Zoom calls.  I don't want to be tired, no....exhausted, all the time.  I can't depend on anyone to do with with me, I need to find the strength within myself.  I can't give in to the tiredness.  I can't succumb to the desire to do nothing.  It's time.  NOW is the time!!!  I'm going to ink my goals and fucking stick with it!!!

 I'm back in a 100 day challenge.  I didn't have my heart in the last one.  I've found some instructors who do workouts outside of the app that I REALLY like!  Helps keep me moving.  I haven't changed my eating habits yet, waiting for the holidays to be over.  Wanted to incorporate exercising daily back into my life and figured once I had a better grasp on that, I could attack the eating, and most important part of all this.  Anyway, I'm on Day 27 and just did a Hey Y'all Fitness workout with Kristin Nava.  I don't know that my arms will ever NOT feel like jello noodles!!!!  I haven't seen many results yet but I anticipate that when I do clean up my eating, it'll go quick!

 I find it exceptionally difficult to get my eating squared away when our meal planning is so crappy.  Last minute, oh shit, what's for lunch or dinner kill me!  Not only the offerings but the expense!  Sigh....I'll get there, I swear I will.  Today I decided to restart the Intermediate DDP program.  Of course, my first workout was thwarted by being stared at by Karl and having Loki plop himself down on my mat as I was starting the workout.  I'll have to do it later today.  Tomorrow is election day.  It's 226 days since March 21, 2020 when the hard lockdown/quarantine began. People are getting more comfortable in returning to "normal" and the numbers are climbing higher than before.  What an absolute shit show.  We've been pretty careful so as not to jeopardize Jake, Dad, or Elke's health.  I have actually enjoyed this time with all of us home more.  No commuting, no rushing to after school activities.  The only thing...